Deuteronomy 16:17


Every man shall give as he is able, according to the blessing of the LORD thy God which he hath given thee.



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I will share whenever I can because God has blessed me with abundance.

I was just outside, walking the dog, and when i looked up the sky i saw a bright white light, moving towards the clouds at a steady pace. Not to fast, not that slow. The wind on the stratosphere was fast enough for it to push these pile of clouds northwards, intercepting the light. At first I thought it was a jet, but it did not have the flashing lights, and it would have been a flashes of red, and blue altogether. Then I thought it was a shooting star, then I wondered why was it too slow, and the light was was diffusing on the side, and the light was in a steady glow meaning that it was still in our atmosphere. It looked like Venus before sunrise(If you have seen it.)

It entered the clouds. I waited several minutes; the dog already finished his business. I looked and stared at the same spot and it did not come out. The clouds were gone, the portion of the sky cleared up, and no light.

I finally went inside wondering what might that be. Scary. I guess not. Fascinating? I believe so.

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30 min lunch break everyday is spent being active by skateboarding around the plaza and listening to music.

Vitamin Water - Focus, is my addiction

Gurren Lagann has been an obsession

I have many things to finish for the Anime Super Con and website designs for people.

Writing class, Tuesday night.

I had fun, the class was not that hard as I thought.

I like writing. Most of my ideas though, are drawn out through figures, not written out.

Our Professor, made us write a journal.

"If you can change any one thing in your past, what would it be?
How would your life be like?"

I had a hard time on that one. First of all, I don't want to change my past.

Any regrets, mistakes, fights, quarrels, and other things that I've experienced

has been a lesson for me. I hope I would not stumble upon it again and make the same

mistake twice. I think I am making one right now.

I had to write something, so I wrote about my mother. How she died, and how I was

incapable of helping her since, what do I know? I was only turning 5. What's worse is that

I was sleeping when it all happened.

When you were only a child, and when you wake up every morning, you would look for your mom.

That's what happened, only thing is, she wasn't there. Alright, enough of this.


I was talking to myself most of the time, and writing what my mind was saying. Since

the people that I want to talk to are busy with school, work and other things, so I can't

disturb them unless I need something important.


Anyway, ah! Saturday is Super Anime Day here in our town. I'm having a table. I have

the pleasure of sitting beside Nicole(nikosoup). I am going to do commissions, sell prints, and

chill and talk about stuff that we do not usually talk about everyday. I hope its going to be

fun.




I still have to finish my prints.

I forgot, i had many journal entries that are,, classic,, some 2,3 years ago?

hahaha.. I hoo0o0ope everything is ok there in the P.I.,,,


If you want to read it, that's fine, if not nevermind, I will delete all of them, so that I could right new chapters for "drama" and what ever i can come up with in writing.

seriously, all those blogs were my "emo" thoughts that i swear i should've never thought of and posted on LJ.

I am a Skrull. He Loves YOu.

As I leave here today, apartment 108
I'll always keep you in my heart.
Anderson is cold tonight,
The leaves are scattered on the ground.
I miss the seasons,
And the comfort of your smile.

Sometimes this all feels like a dream.
I'm waiting for someone to just wake me up,
From this life.

As I look out at these fairgrounds,
I remember how our family split apart.
I don't think I ever told you,
But I know you always did your best.
And the hard times,
They only made us stronger.

As I sit here all alone,
I wonder how I'm suppose to carry on when you're gone.
I'll never be the same without you,
I love you more then you will ever know.
So maybe now you finally know.
Sometimes we're helpless and alone,
But you can't let it keep you weighted down.
You must go on.

Do you ever feel like crying?
Do you ever feel like giving up?
I raise my hands up towards the sky,
I say this prayer for you tonight,
Because nothing is impossible.

As I sit here all alone,
I wonder how I'm suppose to carry on when you're gone.
I'll never be the same without you,
I love you more then you will ever know.
So maybe now you finally know.
Sometimes we're helpless and alone,
But you can't let it keep you weighted down.
You must go on.

(The hardest part isn't finding what we need to be, it's being content with who we are.)

Stay who you are.
You must go on.
Stay who you are

2 freakin years since my last update.. I remember I was still back home,, doing whatever red and black theme that i can fix with CSS.

I got back in LJ because of my friend here in miami. I told her that i'm gonna get an LJ(Live Journal) so that I could read what she wrote.

I read and skimmed most of her journals.. Pretty interesting, I should say.


Going to finish my Harry Potter entry.

GO0d Night.

Find your Celestial Choir





Find your Celestial Choir





Find your Celestial Choir





Find your Celestial Choir





Find your Celestial Choir





What celestial choir do you resonate?

how many are there anyway?

Greetings to all my friends.

It has been a while since i wrote something worthy to be called as a blog. Its so hard to think of anything to write these days, especially if you don't want to write what is currently happening to you. Friends, I am sorry for my past entry. It was just a time for me to cough off that stupid hairball off of me. I was expecting replies, badly, but nobody seemed to care. That's over with. Somehow, a feeling of easiness and peace surrounds me right now. Just that, makes my day fine and well.

Ah. Summer. Since the end of March, I bet you all felt the heat that engulfed our beloved Metropolis, where you work, and hang out in malls. You started appreciating the coolness of air-conditioned cars, and rooms in your workplaces. If not for those, you'll all be soaked in your own sweat. What's worse? your just starting your day.

Summer. The right time for beaches, resorts, pools, malls, tagaytay, baguio, boracay, batangas, cavite. OMG! I miss the 7,107-island archipelago, that I call "home."

Home huh? I guess, if it weren't for my family there, I would not go back anymore. I guess there are somethings in me that really need to be changed. Thanks to my friends, as of now, Silvergrigory and Eternal_Fayt have help me cope up with the "things" I left unsolved. The question that runs in my mind though.. "Silver, was it solved? is it over?"

No more rants for me. I rest my case. Im too far away to be still connected with what I've left behind. Thanks friends. I O U.

Hoping to find a job here soon. I just don't know what but i'll still be looking for some. On the internet or in downtown. I had applied for 3 jobs as of now. No calls pr emails yet. Prayers, I need.

Summer. I can't wait to feel the heat. I can't wait to swim the beaches. I can't wait to enjoy the sunset. I can't wait to meet new friends. I can't wait. I just cant. Just one month to go.

Changes. New look, new outlook, new place, new peers... new life. I just can't see my old self anymore. Fun starts.

Kingdom Hearts 2. I can't think of any possible game to play (after finishing NFSU2) except KH2! If there were cheap pirated CD's here it'd be great. I'm so jealous of Silvergrigory, she finished it already! I bet Eternal_fayt did too! The game costs about $50 here. I have to work my ass out just to get that game. I think, I'm gonna buy that when it reaches like the $20 price mark. Tekken 5 here still costs $40. My skills are diminishing.. Noooo!!! But first, My own Laptop (or desktop) and car.

Right now, Im using an old PowerMac G3,, POWER!! 233MhZ of it! It has a version 5 Internet Explorer, a version 4.7 Netscape Navigator, a version 5 AOL! then a Photoshop 3, an Illustrator 6. My gosh, talk about vintage! Good thing my Yahoo Messenger's working its purpose. Even friendster won't open, and xanga as well. Guess i'm stuck at deviant and LJ. Well, regarding DEviantArt, I cant even post some works anymore, yet. The worse thing is, the mouse has only one button!!! ONE! No right-clicks.

What could be a noce ending for all of this? Just remember, "Live yor life one day at a time, and live it, as if it were your last day on earth."

*sigh*

nothing to do.

just type. And *sigh*

Good Evening guys.

God bless!

It's 8 pm, and the sun is still up. I can't go to sleep like this. The glare of the sun flashes on my eys as i looked up the blue sky. As I was walking, I noticed that I was all alone, in the park. No kids playing, no lovers on benches, no people, no one.

I sat down, started to write this new blog of mine. I just erased my old blog. Just to let the past ease down abit. "Somethings are meant to be forgotten..." As I recall one of my friends say. "... and keep the happy memories and cherish it."

As much as I want to write my blog in filipino, i can't. I'm not in the Philippines anymore. I'm starting to live a new life. Leaving what I left, and moving on. Damn. Why is it so painful to do the right thing?

Okay, reality check. Im in a park, with a notebook and a pen, writing this blog. This took me a while to think about writing this. The sun is about to set. It's getting late, and I should be going home now. Before I stood up, I saw, beyond the lake, the moon, all red. Somehow, it was like covered in blood. Yeah, the weather was bad I guess. Then I thought, I'd sit down a few more minutes, just to stare at the moon.

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... I can't think of anything to write. Maybe because I wasn't focused on the pen and the notebook. Now, Im typing. At home. Its 12:33am, Saturday, Black Saturday as we all call it in the Philippines.

About the moon. It's good friday. The Day that Jesus gave his life for our salvation and for the forgiveness of our sins. Why is it called good friday anyway? A teacher, told us his point of view, or why he thinks that it's called "Good Friday." He said that "It's good friday because its good to know that God, gave His own son for our salvation. A chance to live for eternity.

Bloodshed. A person, has to be an offering. That maybe the reason why i saw that during my stroll in the park.

I went out 30 min ago. Lightning, flashing the night sky. Hope its not gonna rain tomorrow, because were packing our stuff in the truck. We are moving to Norfolk. New community, new people. I'll look for a job there. And maybe if i find a better paying job, or a job that I like, i wouldn't be so distracted over the internet typing blogs, and sending email/messages to those people who wouldn't give a damn on how am i doing here in the US. Sometimes, I'm starting to think that its my turn to forget people. Im so considerate on how others feel if there's something i did. *sigh* My turn. Any last message that you all "friendster people" g0t from me was the last one. Replies are futile.


This blog started out as a "story" type but it ended with me, ranting.


A good friday indeed!

there's no reason for hiding.
there's nothing to be afraid of.
there are alot of things to be serious about,
there are alot of things not to.

Seriously, you were once my friend.
Yet you chose not to.

Because of one fucking reason.

you know what that is?

It's personal.

Sunsets, without her gives me that anxious feeling that i can't give up
on her, yet. There is still hope at the end of the day. The moon will still shine
and again the sun will still rise.

Chances. I hate chances. Even though i need one. All the awful days that i tried to live once a day, has come to pass. That's why, i'll try my best to take back what has been deprived of me. The time and effort wasted, or invested?

I wouldn't know. Days wii come. soon, this'll be all over. For the good, the worse, or the best.

I can't explain why or how, but I can't really feel Christmas. .
Somehow, the season's really different. I can't say aniything much further about it. It may also affect you..

alot of stupid, and surprising things has happened this past week.. friend, left for another job opportunity,, friends planning to leave for another job opportunity, friend, leaving someone he loved and waiting.., me, leaving for another country. Why does it have to be this way? I mean, should we all leave from where we've started? Leave what we've lived to do? Forget whom we have loved? My heart is battered from the emotions wasted on nothing but sheer promises and words that were not meant to be realized. Was it their fault that i became like this? Did they know what might be the outcome of what they're doing? I say, it was my choice to be in this position,, I chose the path, now i feel this way. Nobody can blame me except for myself. It was my choice. Choice to change. It was so drastic that my heart wasn't able to process everything. Instead it took everything in an instant, and making it choke on that i have felt. I hope someday, change won't be a drastic thing. It should be given time and effort. That if you change, it would be for the better.

This is my first live journal entry.. God bless,